let's say that i'm having it hard right now because i literally brought it on myself.
it's my fault that i didn't study properly, and my fault that i am transferring schools now.


... so is this enough reason to cut off all financial support?


maybe?

started this so-called training/induction period of 3 days at a massage shop in petersham. quite a pain to get there and back, and esp during and after the shift. freaking 9pm to 4-6am. you'd think that after all that nightoil-burning i should be able to cope with this like a flick of a nose boogie, but hell no, my left shoulder's almost gone after two nights. and there are no buses after the 4am closing. and i'm so irritated because the damn management's so indecisive that they are training yet another girl for the same position when they expressly advertised for one. and they still want me to train additional 3 days for a receptionist position, during which i get no pay but as a deposit refunded when i quit. so tonight i'm staying home, and possibly going back for actual work tmr night.

because i'm not sure how much i'll get paid, i've been calling and emailing around. there's a sales position at a cafeteria in city tmr and i'm supposed to be there by 11am. then a suitcase to pick up around noon in north bondi. then stuff to carry over to this garage space in randwick junction. then another interview in a massage shop in burwood/chatswood/rockdale after 1pm, depending on what the management there says. maybe i should push off the garage part to saturday.

hopefully some of the companies i sent resumes to will reply me by tomorrow.

and if i can weave this around somehow, i should move out to a cheaper place than the one with the garage my mum found at church.

i'm so tired i could scream. no money to pay rent. rantrantrant can i get a loan?